stop sign

Ever had that feeling? You know the one I'm talking about. Everything in your life feels chaotic and upsetting and you barely know what to do with yourself, and then something comes from out of nowhere, practically smacking you upside the head, and you just stop.

Tonight I was driving home from a friend's house, feeling very sad about saying goodbyes, and I had a feeling (not THE feeling I was referring to, that comes later) that I was supposed to go to adoration. So I went, because maybe that was God telling me to- who am I to know? We can all benefit from some chill-out time with Jesus, after all. Then on the drive home from adoration, I had the windows down and there was a nice breeze blowing in. And a song came on the radio (a song, mind you, that I haven't ever heard on the radio, but a song I was just thinking about earlier today), that reminds me so powerfully of another time in my life. When things were so sure, and happy... it was a song from a retreat I went on a long time ago. Overhead in the sky, as I was driving and listening to this song, there was an outrageous bolt of heat lightning. And the song was singing:

And I can feel your presence here with me
Suddenly I'm lost within your beauty
Caught up in the wonder of your touch
Here in this moment I surrender to your love.

And there it was. I just stopped. I listened to the music, watched the lightning show, felt the cool breeze, and just existed. Was I still sad about my friend leaving? Yes. Was I still worried and confused and frustrated with other things? Yes. But in that moment, despite all of the sadness and fear, I knew it was okay. I knew that no matter what happened, I would be alright. Because I am LOVED. Wholly, unconditionally, and forever. Thanks for the reminder.